Lock ALL Doors, I'm back!

Well, that was an interesting vacation. Though, I'm not sure if it could even really be considered a vacation. Anywho.... to answer the top five most asked questions right off the bat:
1: where have you been!
Well, I have been working in a homeless shelter in San Francisco. My official title was, Substance Abuse Counselor (at least thats what my name tag said).
2: Did you like it?Was it hard? did you miss home everyday?!
Well, it was a great learning experience, I saw things that I would not have been able to see otherwise. Some days were incredibly draining, physically, emotionally and most definitely spiritually. Yes I missed home, especially my kids!!!!
3: So did you have a boyfriend (seriously people)?
Well,... heck no.
4: Are you so happy to be back?
Well, this is more like a trick question to me. Yes, I am very very very happy to back. All my friends are here, my sister is here, my parentals (one set) are here and I have made a pretty decent life here over the past 6 years. But this does not mean that I don't miss there. My parentals are there (set 2), my little cousin (Kya) is there, as are the rest of them but she's my favorite, my aunt is there (bestest best friend) my brothers are there, and lets face it, 15 years of living is there. So yes, I am happy to be back but I certainly did leave a piece of my heart in San Francisco.
5: What are your plans now!
Well, for those of you that know me well, there is no plan (hahahahaha). You will know as I know.
Now that that is taken care of, we can keep it movin. So I have been home about a week and a half and done pretty much nothing at all. My days are spent sleeping in, playing phone tag with Kylee, hour long conversations with Nicole (not much has changed), telling my mom my room is cleaned (promise I'll get to that), arguing with Jess (no you can't wear that), and my favorite playing with the kids (if anything is broken, Parker did it).
Hey! It's NYE. We all know what that means...

Every Part of Me

Sometimes song lyrics can say what the mouth cannot.
I feel like I'm
A million miles away
From myself
More and more these days
I've been down
So many open roads
But they never lead me home
And now i just don't know
Who i really am
How it's gonna be
Is there something that I can't see
I wanna understand
Maybe I will never be
Who I was before
Maybe I don't know her anymore
Maybe who I am today
Ain't so far from yesterday
Can I find a way to be
Every part of me
So I'll try
Try to sort things out
And find myself
Get my feet back on the ground
It'll take time
But I know I'll be alright
Cuz nothing much has changed
On the inside
It's hard to figure out
How it's gonna be
Cuz I don't really know now
I wanna understand
I don't wanna wait too long
To find out where I'm meant to belong
I've always wanted to be where I am today
But I never thought I'd feel this way
Maybe I will never be
Who I was before
Maybe I don't know her anymore
Maybe who I am today
Ain't so far from yesterday
Can I find a way to be
Every part of me

My Life DOES Suck Without You

Have you heard that song by Kelly Clarkson, My Life Would Suck Without You? Well whenever it comes on the radio, and I mean WHENEVER, tears start to form in my eyes. And that is about it.
Miss you B

Meh

So, here it is. The blog of all blogs (well not really but here it is anyway):
For those of you who do not know, I am staying in SF through the fall. Yes, that means that I will not be returning to USU for fall semester (please plug your tears Leona). I know I know, life will now be a little more dull but we will get through it. And lets face it, no one is more heart broken over this decision than yours truly. I mean, at least you're all still together. Right? But before you all start feeling like I'm staying for fun allow me to reassure you that this is not the case. My idea of a good time is babysitting my 4yr old cousin, love that kid. But seriously, all I do is work and hang out with fam. And the weather isn't even nice! Today is was drizzling and super windy. I was peeved, peeved I tell you! Anywho, I can't talk about anything new or exciting going on in my life because this is all I would have to say: uh...................., yup, that's about it. Oh! I did do some shopping last weekend, how I love shopping. Though my aunt wouldn't let me get any tennis shoes, she says that I have too many. Little does she know that the moment I'm at the mall alone again I'm getting a new pair! haha, I'll show her! Hmmm, what else is there?.... I don't know. Oh I am coming home the end of September to visit... I am very excited for this visit but I'll touch on that more as the time grows nearer. I miss you all very much especially the 4 besties from home and roomies and G.N.D (girls next door) oh and my kids! how I miss Parker and Riley and Emma and KJ, my life has been so very empty without them, and Mom&Dad #2 too. oh and I guess i miss the rents and Jess too.
I just hope I am missed a fraction of what I am missing you all...

Here It Is

So people have been wanting me to update my blog so here it is:
I've moved to Cali for the summer. I work and hang with fam and that is about it.
There, happy now?

All Good Things....

Alright, so this might be a few days late but give me a break. I've been busy.. ya know, with taking finals, packing up, cleaning, tunnel adventuring, and that whole running from the cops thing... but anywho, back to what I was saying, All good things...

So the past 8 months have been the most roller coaster of consecutive months of my life. Shall I start from August and make my way to now? I think so.

August:

I quit the wretched hell hole I was forced to work in all summer long. I started packing up to start my Sophomore year at USU. I was kinda hesitant, not gonna lie, but I sucked it up and moved into Pineview. I knew all of my roomies from the year before, all except one: Marissa Lou Floodman (I'll elaborate more on her in a later post). Classes started and yeah that's about it.

September:

Well, for those of you that had any type of contact with me during this time then you know what what happened right around this time (for those of you who don't... well that's just too bad). So ya, that whole thing went down.

You know what, my attention span is way too short to go through all the major events of the past 8 months haha. Let me just try and sum it all up in 1 paragraph.

So like I said in the beginning, this year was an absolute roller coaster ride. There were days when I didn't even want to get out of bed, there were days when I thought life just couldn't possibly try and get any better. But through all these times, good and bad, I had the best friends anyone could ever ask for. They were there even when I wanted them to leave me alone. They came to my (pathetic) intramural basketball games. They put up with all my dancing on tables (or joined) and great singing abilities. To simply put it, they were the type of best friends some people search their whole lives trying to find. They're the type of friends that I know I will keep the rest of my life, whether we want to stay friends or not :).

I'm even lucky enough to have 2 groups of friends like this. I have my friends from school, the ones that stay up late with me, either to get into mischief or to just talk. But then I have my friends from home. These friends have been here since day one practically. We went to high school with me, they all live within walking distance from my house (yes even you, Cookie), they tell me exactly whats up and how I should be acting. I don't keep in contact with many people from high school but there are 4 that I will be friends with even when I'm old and someone will be changing my diapers.

So back to the whole title of this post thing. I names this post " All Good Things..." for a reason. You see, I had to say bye too my college friends last week, a new one everyday from Tuesday to Saturday. Now, those of you that know me well know how big of a cry baby I am, for those of you that don't... I could give any poopy-diapered baby a run for its money. So there I was last week, crying every single time I had to say bye to someone, someone that had helped me in some way over the past 8 months. Some people might ask the question, why were you so emotional when you'll see/live with/live near 99% of these people again in like 4 months? Well here is my answer. First off, I'm leaving for the summer and I'm going to be away from all these people for a long time. Must I remind you that these are the people that I spent every single day with for the past 8 months? Second, things change. Yes, a majority of us will be together again next year, but it won't be the same. We won't be living right next door to each other, or down the hall, or the next apartment complex over. So yes, I cried, I cried every time I had to say bye to one of my best friends (whether you saw the tears or not, believe, they were there), I cried even at some of the stupid things; who cries at a HSM song (thanks Huss)? I do, that's who. I cried when I got home, I cried last night, I'll probably cry for the entire drive to the airport. But don't blame me, blame the damn onions (inside joke).

This is quite possibly the longest post ever...

So I guess what I am trying to say is this; yes, all good things must come to an end. But they must eventually come to an end so new great things can begin. Its ok to be sad when you say bye to the people that you love, even if it is only for 4 months.
I just want to end by saying thank you. Thank you for being such good friends to me over the course of this crazy roller coaster ride. You know who you are, so I don't have to name names.
I love you all and I can't wait to be reunited in August.

Jo&Jess

So I know these girls, Jo*&Jess*, and they're in love. When I see them together I know that I can one day find true love of my own. I am currently sitting on their couch, watching them attempt to dance. They are not dancers. They are simply in love. Now Jess is trying to convince Jo to link toes with her, but Jo is getting quite peeved. Jess is definitely the masculine one in the relationship, she is beating up Jo, I feel like I should stop them but that requires too much movement. Jo is on the verge of tears now... Now they are exchanging hits and after each hit the other yells "NOW WE'RE EVEN. STOP HITTING ME!" Jess won't share water(Melissa's* water BTW) with Jo, Jo gets out of her seat and insists on retrieving the water from Jess' death grasp. Now they are wanting me to pay attention to their interpretive dance, which isn't a dance at all; it is them spinning around in circles with hands on the water bottle. Jess finally gives in and allows Jo a drink, Jo is fat and drinks all the water(ok I made that last bit up, the part about her drinking it not about her being fat, because she really is fat). Their roomie is trying to go to bed and she wants them to shut up and instead of being a little jerk about it like Melissa would be she politely says, "Goodnight girls, I'm going to bed now. Take care." Jess just pulled a very sharp knife on Jo, good thing Chris* was there to save the damsel, he kicked Jess right in her left phalanges. She is dead now. Jo is crying over her dead body... OH NO! Jo, can no longer take the pain so she takes the knife and ends her own life. Jess was just playing a joke but since her lover has killed herself she realizes she does not want to live with without the love of her life so she picks up the knife and takes her own life. Sad day.
hmmmm, this story sounds strangely familiar...
Oh well, that is all.
*names have been changed to protect true identities

Mother Nature?... I don't think so

I was walking home from the gym yesterday cursing this blasted weather the entire way home. I started thinkin back to a past theory I had awhile back. There is no way that nature is a woman, its gotta be a married couple and we are the children "lucky" enough to call them Mommy and Daddy. This might seem like a joke but I am being serious. I mean lets think about this and pull some facts, lets compare this to our my own family.
Back in the day if I wanted an extension on curfew who would I ask? Mom of course, she'd want to know why I wanted an extension, who I'd be with and what time I'd be home. After some persuading she'd give in, send me on my merry way with a kiss on the cheek and 10 extra bucks in my pocket. Now, if I would have gone to Dad with this same request this is how the conversation would have played out:
Sian: "Hey Matt, can I stay out 2 extra hours tonight?
Matt: "No."
Sian: "But you haven't even allowed me to tell you why."
Matt: "I don't need to hear it, the answer is still no."
Sian: " But, if I can't stay out just a little bit later everyone..."
(rudely interrupted)
Matt: "Like I said Sian, you be home by midnight or else."
Now how many people can relate to this story? Lots I'm sure, I mean this can be related to almost any topic; raise on allowance, car privileges, dating rules etc etc. So I'm asking, who in the worlds idea was it to call nature a woman(that is a rhetorical question of course, it was a mans)? Now, do you all remember that great day we had on Friday? The sun was shining, there were people all around enjoying the 70 degree weather, the perfect day(with the exception of our beloved Aggies losing), I know I sure enjoyed myself. You see, that was all Mother Natures doing, she realized how stressed we all are by a crazy spring semester and she just wanted to reward us, for giving all we've got to give day in and day out, by giving us the perfect day. But then, Father nature had to go in put his two sense in. He figured we've been given enough, the winter was not nearly as harsh as it has been in years past, winter just ended and they don't need 70 degree weather in March, save that weather for June. This list can go on and on. So, next time it snows( and I promise you it will before this semester is over) don't go cursing Mother Nature right off the bat, maybe try looking at her husband. Just a thought...
And that is all I have to say about that.

ok..... so I gave in. Here I am creating a blog, but not on my own accord, let me tell you the story:
So, I was sitting at my house last night, being the great child that I am I was helping my mom with the dishes and cleaning my house. My phone rang, it read Nicole L., now for the those of you who do not know, Nicole is a "special" friend of mine from school, well usually I don't answer my phone while I'm assisting my mother but because Nicole doesn't really have any other friends I answered it anyway. The moment I picked up the phone she instantly started yelling at me, "You need to come to Kamas right now!" I tried to explain to her that I was busy helping my mother with the household chores but she did not care. "If you don't leave your house within the next ten minutes something bad will happen to your entire family!" Now, I love my family a lot so I packed a bag, told Jess to hop in the car with me and we were on our merry way. I wasn't quite sure where exactly Kamas, UT was located, all I knew was that it is on the other side of Park City. It was a dark, scary and a confusing drive but I continued on my way because I did not want my family to be injured. We arrived in Kamas, UT at approximately 10:00p.m. When Nicole told me that it was in the middle of nowhere I thought she was kidding- She wasn't! Right now I'm trying to digest the fact that they still ride around in horse and buggy here! So at the crack of dawn when the rooster crowed at 5:00 in the freakin morning she made me get up and create this blog... So here I am, in Kamas UT, creating a blog. I know what you're all thinking right about now, how in the world do they gave Internet connection in Kamas UT! Well they do. I'll blog more about my Kamas experience in a couple days.
That is all