Catch Up

Well, it has been waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too long since my last post. So here we go:
I've been up in Logan for the past semester, lovin life... mostly (miss you Jess). School is good, work is good, life is good. I'm not sure how I'll make it through the rest of the semester without the Spectrum, I miss it so much already. Hmmm, I'm not sure if there is anything left to say...
GO AGGIES!!!!

Lock ALL Doors, I'm back!

Well, that was an interesting vacation. Though, I'm not sure if it could even really be considered a vacation. Anywho.... to answer the top five most asked questions right off the bat:
1: where have you been!
Well, I have been working in a homeless shelter in San Francisco. My official title was, Substance Abuse Counselor (at least thats what my name tag said).
2: Did you like it?Was it hard? did you miss home everyday?!
Well, it was a great learning experience, I saw things that I would not have been able to see otherwise. Some days were incredibly draining, physically, emotionally and most definitely spiritually. Yes I missed home, especially my kids!!!!
3: So did you have a boyfriend (seriously people)?
Well,... heck no.
4: Are you so happy to be back?
Well, this is more like a trick question to me. Yes, I am very very very happy to back. All my friends are here, my sister is here, my parentals (one set) are here and I have made a pretty decent life here over the past 6 years. But this does not mean that I don't miss there. My parentals are there (set 2), my little cousin (Kya) is there, as are the rest of them but she's my favorite, my aunt is there (bestest best friend) my brothers are there, and lets face it, 15 years of living is there. So yes, I am happy to be back but I certainly did leave a piece of my heart in San Francisco.
5: What are your plans now!
Well, for those of you that know me well, there is no plan (hahahahaha). You will know as I know.
Now that that is taken care of, we can keep it movin. So I have been home about a week and a half and done pretty much nothing at all. My days are spent sleeping in, playing phone tag with Kylee, hour long conversations with Nicole (not much has changed), telling my mom my room is cleaned (promise I'll get to that), arguing with Jess (no you can't wear that), and my favorite playing with the kids (if anything is broken, Parker did it).
Hey! It's NYE. We all know what that means...

Every Part of Me

Sometimes song lyrics can say what the mouth cannot.
I feel like I'm
A million miles away
From myself
More and more these days
I've been down
So many open roads
But they never lead me home
And now i just don't know
Who i really am
How it's gonna be
Is there something that I can't see
I wanna understand
Maybe I will never be
Who I was before
Maybe I don't know her anymore
Maybe who I am today
Ain't so far from yesterday
Can I find a way to be
Every part of me
So I'll try
Try to sort things out
And find myself
Get my feet back on the ground
It'll take time
But I know I'll be alright
Cuz nothing much has changed
On the inside
It's hard to figure out
How it's gonna be
Cuz I don't really know now
I wanna understand
I don't wanna wait too long
To find out where I'm meant to belong
I've always wanted to be where I am today
But I never thought I'd feel this way
Maybe I will never be
Who I was before
Maybe I don't know her anymore
Maybe who I am today
Ain't so far from yesterday
Can I find a way to be
Every part of me

My Life DOES Suck Without You

Have you heard that song by Kelly Clarkson, My Life Would Suck Without You? Well whenever it comes on the radio, and I mean WHENEVER, tears start to form in my eyes. And that is about it.
Miss you B

Meh

So, here it is. The blog of all blogs (well not really but here it is anyway):
For those of you who do not know, I am staying in SF through the fall. Yes, that means that I will not be returning to USU for fall semester (please plug your tears Leona). I know I know, life will now be a little more dull but we will get through it. And lets face it, no one is more heart broken over this decision than yours truly. I mean, at least you're all still together. Right? But before you all start feeling like I'm staying for fun allow me to reassure you that this is not the case. My idea of a good time is babysitting my 4yr old cousin, love that kid. But seriously, all I do is work and hang out with fam. And the weather isn't even nice! Today is was drizzling and super windy. I was peeved, peeved I tell you! Anywho, I can't talk about anything new or exciting going on in my life because this is all I would have to say: uh...................., yup, that's about it. Oh! I did do some shopping last weekend, how I love shopping. Though my aunt wouldn't let me get any tennis shoes, she says that I have too many. Little does she know that the moment I'm at the mall alone again I'm getting a new pair! haha, I'll show her! Hmmm, what else is there?.... I don't know. Oh I am coming home the end of September to visit... I am very excited for this visit but I'll touch on that more as the time grows nearer. I miss you all very much especially the 4 besties from home and roomies and G.N.D (girls next door) oh and my kids! how I miss Parker and Riley and Emma and KJ, my life has been so very empty without them, and Mom&Dad #2 too. oh and I guess i miss the rents and Jess too.
I just hope I am missed a fraction of what I am missing you all...

Here It Is

So people have been wanting me to update my blog so here it is:
I've moved to Cali for the summer. I work and hang with fam and that is about it.
There, happy now?

All Good Things....

Alright, so this might be a few days late but give me a break. I've been busy.. ya know, with taking finals, packing up, cleaning, tunnel adventuring, and that whole running from the cops thing... but anywho, back to what I was saying, All good things...

So the past 8 months have been the most roller coaster of consecutive months of my life. Shall I start from August and make my way to now? I think so.

August:

I quit the wretched hell hole I was forced to work in all summer long. I started packing up to start my Sophomore year at USU. I was kinda hesitant, not gonna lie, but I sucked it up and moved into Pineview. I knew all of my roomies from the year before, all except one: Marissa Lou Floodman (I'll elaborate more on her in a later post). Classes started and yeah that's about it.

September:

Well, for those of you that had any type of contact with me during this time then you know what what happened right around this time (for those of you who don't... well that's just too bad). So ya, that whole thing went down.

You know what, my attention span is way too short to go through all the major events of the past 8 months haha. Let me just try and sum it all up in 1 paragraph.

So like I said in the beginning, this year was an absolute roller coaster ride. There were days when I didn't even want to get out of bed, there were days when I thought life just couldn't possibly try and get any better. But through all these times, good and bad, I had the best friends anyone could ever ask for. They were there even when I wanted them to leave me alone. They came to my (pathetic) intramural basketball games. They put up with all my dancing on tables (or joined) and great singing abilities. To simply put it, they were the type of best friends some people search their whole lives trying to find. They're the type of friends that I know I will keep the rest of my life, whether we want to stay friends or not :).

I'm even lucky enough to have 2 groups of friends like this. I have my friends from school, the ones that stay up late with me, either to get into mischief or to just talk. But then I have my friends from home. These friends have been here since day one practically. We went to high school with me, they all live within walking distance from my house (yes even you, Cookie), they tell me exactly whats up and how I should be acting. I don't keep in contact with many people from high school but there are 4 that I will be friends with even when I'm old and someone will be changing my diapers.

So back to the whole title of this post thing. I names this post " All Good Things..." for a reason. You see, I had to say bye too my college friends last week, a new one everyday from Tuesday to Saturday. Now, those of you that know me well know how big of a cry baby I am, for those of you that don't... I could give any poopy-diapered baby a run for its money. So there I was last week, crying every single time I had to say bye to someone, someone that had helped me in some way over the past 8 months. Some people might ask the question, why were you so emotional when you'll see/live with/live near 99% of these people again in like 4 months? Well here is my answer. First off, I'm leaving for the summer and I'm going to be away from all these people for a long time. Must I remind you that these are the people that I spent every single day with for the past 8 months? Second, things change. Yes, a majority of us will be together again next year, but it won't be the same. We won't be living right next door to each other, or down the hall, or the next apartment complex over. So yes, I cried, I cried every time I had to say bye to one of my best friends (whether you saw the tears or not, believe, they were there), I cried even at some of the stupid things; who cries at a HSM song (thanks Huss)? I do, that's who. I cried when I got home, I cried last night, I'll probably cry for the entire drive to the airport. But don't blame me, blame the damn onions (inside joke).

This is quite possibly the longest post ever...

So I guess what I am trying to say is this; yes, all good things must come to an end. But they must eventually come to an end so new great things can begin. Its ok to be sad when you say bye to the people that you love, even if it is only for 4 months.
I just want to end by saying thank you. Thank you for being such good friends to me over the course of this crazy roller coaster ride. You know who you are, so I don't have to name names.
I love you all and I can't wait to be reunited in August.