Another Year Down

Wow.... that word pretty much sums up the last year of my life. A little more than a year ago I moved to California to work for the summer, little did I know that that summer would turn into 8 months. So much has changed over the last year, I have changes over the last year. I can't say if these changes are for the better or not, but really it doesn't really even matter. For those of you that know me well, you know that one of my favorite sayings is,
"Everything happens for a reason."
I don't believe in chance or accidents. Every decision and choice I make in this life, has some sort of meaning.
Aright, enough with the whole "meaning of life" speech, lets catch up! Summer started a little more than a week ago and I have been bummin it ever since. I rarely leave my house, unless I'm playing with the kids. Wait, there was that random trip to Idaho and that one other night last week (that is a whole other story in and of itself). So ya, I pretty much sit around all day and think about my Lakers repeating :). Don't you worry though, I have been looking for work.... kinda...
Well, I think that's it for today!

Catch Up

Well, it has been waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too long since my last post. So here we go:
I've been up in Logan for the past semester, lovin life... mostly (miss you Jess). School is good, work is good, life is good. I'm not sure how I'll make it through the rest of the semester without the Spectrum, I miss it so much already. Hmmm, I'm not sure if there is anything left to say...
GO AGGIES!!!!

Lock ALL Doors, I'm back!

Well, that was an interesting vacation. Though, I'm not sure if it could even really be considered a vacation. Anywho.... to answer the top five most asked questions right off the bat:
1: where have you been!
Well, I have been working in a homeless shelter in San Francisco. My official title was, Substance Abuse Counselor (at least thats what my name tag said).
2: Did you like it?Was it hard? did you miss home everyday?!
Well, it was a great learning experience, I saw things that I would not have been able to see otherwise. Some days were incredibly draining, physically, emotionally and most definitely spiritually. Yes I missed home, especially my kids!!!!
3: So did you have a boyfriend (seriously people)?
Well,... heck no.
4: Are you so happy to be back?
Well, this is more like a trick question to me. Yes, I am very very very happy to back. All my friends are here, my sister is here, my parentals (one set) are here and I have made a pretty decent life here over the past 6 years. But this does not mean that I don't miss there. My parentals are there (set 2), my little cousin (Kya) is there, as are the rest of them but she's my favorite, my aunt is there (bestest best friend) my brothers are there, and lets face it, 15 years of living is there. So yes, I am happy to be back but I certainly did leave a piece of my heart in San Francisco.
5: What are your plans now!
Well, for those of you that know me well, there is no plan (hahahahaha). You will know as I know.
Now that that is taken care of, we can keep it movin. So I have been home about a week and a half and done pretty much nothing at all. My days are spent sleeping in, playing phone tag with Kylee, hour long conversations with Nicole (not much has changed), telling my mom my room is cleaned (promise I'll get to that), arguing with Jess (no you can't wear that), and my favorite playing with the kids (if anything is broken, Parker did it).
Hey! It's NYE. We all know what that means...

Every Part of Me

Sometimes song lyrics can say what the mouth cannot.
I feel like I'm
A million miles away
From myself
More and more these days
I've been down
So many open roads
But they never lead me home
And now i just don't know
Who i really am
How it's gonna be
Is there something that I can't see
I wanna understand
Maybe I will never be
Who I was before
Maybe I don't know her anymore
Maybe who I am today
Ain't so far from yesterday
Can I find a way to be
Every part of me
So I'll try
Try to sort things out
And find myself
Get my feet back on the ground
It'll take time
But I know I'll be alright
Cuz nothing much has changed
On the inside
It's hard to figure out
How it's gonna be
Cuz I don't really know now
I wanna understand
I don't wanna wait too long
To find out where I'm meant to belong
I've always wanted to be where I am today
But I never thought I'd feel this way
Maybe I will never be
Who I was before
Maybe I don't know her anymore
Maybe who I am today
Ain't so far from yesterday
Can I find a way to be
Every part of me

My Life DOES Suck Without You

Have you heard that song by Kelly Clarkson, My Life Would Suck Without You? Well whenever it comes on the radio, and I mean WHENEVER, tears start to form in my eyes. And that is about it.
Miss you B

Meh

So, here it is. The blog of all blogs (well not really but here it is anyway):
For those of you who do not know, I am staying in SF through the fall. Yes, that means that I will not be returning to USU for fall semester (please plug your tears Leona). I know I know, life will now be a little more dull but we will get through it. And lets face it, no one is more heart broken over this decision than yours truly. I mean, at least you're all still together. Right? But before you all start feeling like I'm staying for fun allow me to reassure you that this is not the case. My idea of a good time is babysitting my 4yr old cousin, love that kid. But seriously, all I do is work and hang out with fam. And the weather isn't even nice! Today is was drizzling and super windy. I was peeved, peeved I tell you! Anywho, I can't talk about anything new or exciting going on in my life because this is all I would have to say: uh...................., yup, that's about it. Oh! I did do some shopping last weekend, how I love shopping. Though my aunt wouldn't let me get any tennis shoes, she says that I have too many. Little does she know that the moment I'm at the mall alone again I'm getting a new pair! haha, I'll show her! Hmmm, what else is there?.... I don't know. Oh I am coming home the end of September to visit... I am very excited for this visit but I'll touch on that more as the time grows nearer. I miss you all very much especially the 4 besties from home and roomies and G.N.D (girls next door) oh and my kids! how I miss Parker and Riley and Emma and KJ, my life has been so very empty without them, and Mom&Dad #2 too. oh and I guess i miss the rents and Jess too.
I just hope I am missed a fraction of what I am missing you all...

Here It Is

So people have been wanting me to update my blog so here it is:
I've moved to Cali for the summer. I work and hang with fam and that is about it.
There, happy now?